Have you told them that you have emotions too,
Have you told them that that you need to cry too,
Have you told them under the suit there is a human,
Have you told them that you can also be heartbroken.
Don’t be weak they taught me,
A man doesn’t cry they instilled in me,
A man takes care of the family,
A man doesn’t get pushed around by a woman,
Fuck!! Hold up i am a man not a machine,
Being a man doesn’t mean i am unbreakable,
I am human after all,
Who can be hurt, who can fail,
I am not immune to emotions,
Give me space to express my weakness,
Don’t you dare ask me to suppress my humanity,
I will cry when i feel like it,
I will show emotions when i want,
Who are you to determine how i feel.
I want to kill someone,
Yes i want to kill the old me,
And let the new me out,
It’s high time i lead the life i want,
Not the one that you decide for me,
Damn !!! I am a man not a machine.
To them, fear from their women, was love,
The fear stemmed from the fist,
Their weakness and ignorance, if not so sad would be laughable,
WEAK??? They asked, our women fear us and you call us weak,
All I know is strong men don’t raise their hand at women, but weak ones do
WHAT ABOUT WOMEN WHO BEAT MEN? They ask.
No matter who does it,
It’s still weakness, it must not be done period
GBV destroys the society, our future generations have been consumed by rage,
Hatred, vulgar, violence characterises society,
“Women love men who beat them” they say,
So is that why they are victimised?
There is still a lot to unlearn I see,
Love does not have to hurt or be painful,
Love is shown, affirmation it’s not love,
Scars, blood, crying do not characterise love,
Use the eyes but of the heart to see the signs of what’s not love.
Coins and notes were no more,
Torn out clothes covered their backs,
Stomachs no longer know digestion,
Children no longer schooled,
Tears flowed daily on their cheeks,
Greedy, stupidity filled their hearts,
She was a path out of poverty, they thought
Think of your siblings they manipulated her,
Her resistance fell on death ears,
She had forcibly graduated into adulthood,
Out of hunger, her parents had made her a wife,
To birth children, fulfill sexual desires for an old man,
Her body wasn’t ready, she breath her last giving birth,
They have ended her life, to fulfill their hunger.
After they moved in together Mary and Steve they have been enjoying life as a couple and Mary hadn’t been beaten in over a month.Steve went on a work trip which was supposed to last 2 days but he ended up being away from home for a month. Mary was lonely and she wanted to feel the hands of Steve on her but he was no way to be found. Mike a her co-worker came home one day when she was just wearing a nightie, he seduced her and they made love. She had never felt so much in love, she has started an affair with Mike and she had no regrets. They would meet up at her house daily to have sex but everything changed when Steve came back from his work trip to find the two having sex. Steve didn’t say anything but he just went to sit outside drinking his favorite beer. Mike as he was about to leave he was called by Steve to join him in drinking beer as he was now part of the family. Mike was nervous and didn’t want to sit down but wanted to run away. He hesitantly sat down and Mike being too nervous we wet himself and Steve said if you wanted a toilet my guy you should have asked for one and i would have shown you where to go.Mike took to his heels and ran away, Steve couldn’t stop laughing.Mary was sitting on the couch expecting to be beaten but Steve entered the room and started watching soccer, Mary was shell shocked.I am sorry i was weak , i needed someone to make love to me and Mike was available, she confessed Mary. Steve asked what are we having for supper, Mary asked how long will you keep on pretending that everything is fine in this house. I don’t see anything wrong in this house if you see something wrong then why don’t you fix it.When Steve saw 2 plates on the table he brought a third one to the table. You should have told me we have a visitor i could have cooked enough food for 3,we don’t have a visitor but you had forgotten to put Mike’s plate he is part of the family now isn’t he?Stop it Steve are you going to continue to torture me, why don’t you go ahead and kill me in the process.I am not going to kill you love, Mike and I need you in our lives.The day after Mary and Mike arrived from work,Steve was sitting in the lounge with his friends when they entered together. Mike was about to leave when Mary urged him to stay.The moment everyone had left Steve grabbed Mary’s arm, how dare you?, You and your boy toy disrespect me in from of my friends who do you think you are.You made Mike the member of this family so i am just accepting and respecting the decision you have made your maje…. Before she could finish talking Steve had slapped her, I am the man of the house and if you want to continue living happily here you will follow my rules to the dot am i making myself crystal clear Steve barked. Mary was now terrified and death was flirting with her again. I don’t think i can continue staying here with you. You are going to leave here when i have given you permission so forget about that because you are not leaving here. You can’t force me to stay with you i no longer love you, she was saying this while packing her monarch.Steve removed his belt and slapped her, she was beaten until she could no longer talk or move.She tried to crawl away but the moment she moved she was stopped by the belt. The only thing she could do was to lie down and take every slap of the belt.Him being tired is what saved her skin but the scars on her body were too intense.The sight of her blood made her release a dry cry.
O sweet perfect lips, like nectar that attract bees,
Her lips are *nectar*,men can’t resist,
Big, wide, curvy, tasty they look,
O sweet perfect lips, delicious they are
Her body is a land, explorers want to explore,
Perfectly shaped hips, her bosoms men wish to caress.
Her body is alluring, tarse erect in her presence,
Her hurdies like Kilimanjaro they are,
To other ladies they are an *envy*,to men they are a treasure,
She is an angel in human skin
Did i mention, her eyes? *Deeper than the seas*,
Flowers, grass withers when she opens her eyes,
You see her soul when you look in her eyes,
Her eyes are her identity, they describe her,
Her angelic smile, laughter twinkles the bones of those surrounding her,
Sadness, anger don’t find her face,
Joyful tears is what her cheeks know.
If it ever had effect
Who would know what your future might hold, if only their curses had effect.What would become of those they hate and do not care about,what of those who they are jealous about? It’s only you have never heard them speak, their words like a sharpened spear meant to hurt and harm,if only those curses had effect.I probably wouldn’t be here.A suffering mother who has been twice in labor I would have become.
With the pain of being a bad example and the tears I would shed when the strangers asked me about the other bearer of my children.Uneducated,helpless and a laughter to the world I would become.
Have you had them speak,they are like snakes who spit poison directed straight to my dreams and passions for good hope.
Save me from them oh Lord,as I myself cannot deal with the drama,I want to speak when I know I shouldn’t, but what can I do.Forever my words will die in the heart and the thoughts of my mind will never say out for I am depending and I have been raised.
If only I could reverse time,I would pluck myself out of her womb and cause the world less harm.Heal me oh Lord for I have pain I need to hide from this world as I try to escape the joes of my beloved enermies.